Hey all

well been having some issues with my health, hope it's nothing too serious but it's rough since I haven't really been able to take care of my health or even think about it for about 6 years...guess it's all catching up with me. The crappy diet, lack of exercise, and all the stress. But I've corrected the exercise and nutrition portion. But I do have some concerns about my extremely fast heartbeat. the stress i guess is less but not by much i have school work and a marriage. oh did i mention that i live apart from my husband during the week and drive through the beginning of rush hour traffic on the freeway over 60 miles to get from my work to my home with my husband at the end of the week...and i hate driving b/c it stresses me out. The latest argument between hubby and i is his wanting to join the army...i'd really prefer him not to join but since he wants to i'd rather him join the navy-more of a chance to get stationed in my hometown around my family and plus i KNOW the navy been around it my whole life i don't know the army and with the newest incident at an army base 13 dead and 30 injured because some crackpot didn't want to be sent overseas, but it's not something i can do anything about he's going to do what he wants to do and I know it's his life he's going to have to report to the military not me.

I've been a bt depressed because of my health, missing my husband during the week, and just not really having any friends right now at least around here most of my friends have moved away or we've grown apart. I want kids but I am too practical to have them at this point.

But i am working towards a better life so I am hopeful. I have come to peace with some of the things that happened in my past and although they are somewhat painful I am no longer angry and overtaken by them.

that's about it...except not looking forward to thanksgiving as I don't fit in with my family